I’ll never forget one of my sweet sister-in-laws pulled me aside and said, “Wow, Tanya I never realized how hard it must be for you to go through infertility. The Lord showed me how it’s like grieving a loss EVERY. SINGLE. MONTH! I can’t even imagine!” It meant a lot for her to share that with me. To have someone try and relate to me brought me some comfort. Infertility can seriously knock you down.
It can either break you or make you. Definitely a refining time in your life.
Looking back there were 2 significant things that brought me through those tough times.
1. Turning to Jesus
In John, it talks about how Jesus is the True Vine and how God is the Gardner. We even have a role in this garden! We are the branches off the vine. Looking back I can see how God was pruning me, getting rid of some ugly selfish parts where my life revolved only around me. He peeled away the prideful parts where I thought I DESERVED a baby for being good. Ouch did that one hurt!
It’s never pretty going through tests but the outcome is so worth it when you are plugged into Jesus as your source of life. Making him your True Vine and trusting God to prune you to bear beautiful fruit.
2. Finding my Passion
At the end of the day, God is still good and He created you for a special reason. We each have strengths and passions. What do you gravitate towards? What gives you life? For me I have always loved shopping for decor. This turned into having booths at local antique stores with my mom where we would sell decor items or furniture pieces we painted. Then into decorating spaces for others and even being featured on HGTV! (that’s another post, for another day!)
I’m so thankful while I was waiting for God to grow my family I had developed this gift within me. Being able to serve other families and see them fall in love with their spaces is so uplifting. Life giving!
John 15:1-2, “I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardner. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.”