You are the last one in your friend circle. Everyone of your friends has gotten pregnant. Most of them are now pregnant with their second or third child. You’ve attended baby shower after baby shower and you wonder, “when will it ever be MY turn?”
Most say infertility is lonely. But it’s more than that. It’s like you’ve been left behind. Left out. You are on the sidelines waiting for your turn to be put into the big game. But you are stuck watching all your friends move on with the normal progression of life…college, marriage, careers, children.
Social media has become your worst nightmare. It’s a constant reminder of what you don’t have. What you’re missing out on…the birthday parties, Easter egg hunts, Christmas mornings, the recitals, youth sports.
This is Infertility.
Hannah from the Bible knows exactly how this feels. According to the Jewish law, if you have been married for 10 years, you are required to take another wife in order to fulfill the first commandment to be fruitful and multiply(Gensis 1:28). And that’s how Peninnah, her husband’s second wife entered the scene. Could you imagine taking a sister-wife, right now? Your marriage I’m sure is already strained with not being able to conceive. I don’t think adding another hormonal woman is the wisest solution. Imagine every day Hannah waking to see your husband father children that weren’t her own. And to make matters worse, Peninnah taunted her about it.
Hannah wasn’t able to turn off social media or close the computer when it hurt or became to painful. It was in her OWN home. Today I urge you to take a closer look at Hannah’s story if you are feeling stuck or left behind. It’s found in I Samuel 1:1-20. See if you can relate to Hannah’s cries of bitterness, prayers of hope, and her worship out of faith!
“O Lord Almighty, if you will only look upon your servant’s misery and remember me…” I Samuel 1:11a